Good bye, 2012.

The days passed, and so the Christmas.
Few days ago, Doomsday was still the hot topic in the crowd.
And now, another day to 2013. Time flies.
Sometimes, that scares me a lot. I feel unprepared, but the same time, I wonder what I should prepare.

It takes time for me to figure out what's everything to me. And then I stare out the windows in my room, wondering every single things about life, about myself. Well, it's vague.
I guess I am not alone.

Though the hard times, it's a good life. Cheers, I am looking forward for a new year.


Me.
December 31, 2012.

少年维特的烦恼

The Sorrows of Young Werther.
A book by Goethe. I have not read it, but I might be.

Half a month passed. ED seems so quiet and silent, as if the time paused. Absurdly.
Life goes on. 752 pages of an Oxford dictionary, however, it seems no way that a suitable word saying about life to be found. Therefore, everyone chatters, everyone stops talking.

Hovering. For over a year passed, as the moment I suddenly see the answer, and all the pictures flash back. Since then, silence remains, and everything is as clear as a crystal, nothing shall be done. It doesn't matter anymore, either to save or to hurt more. I guess it's what they called as foreordination, in a situation like this. Let all the silence remains, let 'em all burn to ashes, let time flushes all to the end, endlessly.

Young, and sorrow. 年少，与烦恼。

“给亲爱的你，这只字片语，再多的情绪，也无法表明。”

Perhaps, regrettably, I no longer could write you beautiful verse, to irrigate the secret garden. And that will be the most cruel and ruthless thing I ever did - to witness the dying of blossom.


Me,
October 2, 2012.

Miss 25

庆祝了我的25岁。
说真的，我没有许下什么愿望。只觉得一切很匆忙，匆忙到我想不到也想不起自己究竟期待些什么，可以期待什么。偶尔，就那么希望自己可以那么坦诚吧，不躲不逃，不藏不骗。想不到就说想不到。可是，有时候我还是依然沉默，对一些事情很坚决的保持沉默。
也许到最后，我也不懂这些是为了什么，但是，我还是会好好的过，一直好好的生活，并没影响什么。

Under the sea: KLCC Aquaria

Another outing on a whim.
Out of any idea where to go on a boring Saturday, and suddenly just think of going KLCC Aquaria. Haha, it turns out to be an interesting Saturday, entertaining ; )
Simply love the environment, feel so relax to watch the fishes swimming in the aquarium, I think that is   one of the reason I took my diving course. It is quite interesting to see how others survive and exist on the same planet we are living now, they seems strange and amazing to me.
The best part of all, the oceanarium, a 90-meter tunnel tank with sharks, stingrays, marine turtles, and many fishes! There are some feeding shows on specific time, however, we missed all of them, 'coz we didn't plan our time.

Piranha, we missed the feeding time at 4pm... :(

The touch pool :)

Smiling Stingray, hahaha!

Oppps, here comes the boss!

I wish I could swim with them~ 

Small Sea Jellies

Seriously, this is a nice experience. At least this is somewhere special that we can hang around and have fun besides just shopping, watching movies, yum cha, sing k in KL city. Further more, there is a park for us to walk around after visiting Aquaria. Hmm~a new relaxing eco-experience in the heart of the busy city :D

Aquaria KLCC: Concourse Level, Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre, Kuala Lumpur City Centre, 50088 KL.

Operating Hours:
Mon - Fri, 11.00 AM to 8.00 PM
Weekends, Public Holiday & School Holidays, 10.30 AM to 8.00 PM
Last Admission: 7.00 PM

Ticket:
MyKad Adult: RM 35
MyKid Child: RM 25
Senior Citizen: RM 25

For more information: www.aquariaklcc.com

Bling Bling: i-City, Shah Alam

i-City, the City of Digital Lights, I guess this sound familiar to most of the people in Klang Valley, it is located at Shah Alam Section 7. Millions of colourful LED lights bring the wonderland alive in the dark night. 

I only went to part of the park as it was raining, what a pity. However, it was a good experience, to be in a garden with beautiful, colourful, illuminating trees and flowers, very much like the wonderland in those fairy tales. I felt like don't even want to wink, just wanna keep my eyes wide open to see the wonderful view in front of me. 

Location: Jalan Plumbum 7/102, Seksyen 7, 40000 Shah Alam.

My favourite flower - Sunflower :).
Actually, I really appreciate the time to be together, sincerely feel thankful and I wish to remember all the memories, the happy and sad, all of them, because they are simply beautiful, I would like to remember them all.

喜欢的姿态

谁说的，人生的舞台，千姿百态。
一直想学会轻盈平静的姿态。可是自己毕竟是执着的人，即使不愿承认，一旦喜欢，就难以否认。如此义无反顾的喜欢，后果其实不难设想。
知道自己哭起来很难看，所以连镜子都不敢看。知道自己爱起来很失控，所以连喜欢都不敢随便说。每一次写部落都把用字削用，尽量把关于喜欢的都轻描淡写的带过，而其实在生活里亦如此，只是没有成功过。一提起喜欢，天晓得我多失措，多狼狈，多词穷，因为喜欢得深刻。偏偏时间角色位置好像出了错，枉费了许多的眼泪。谁用很安静的姿态为谁盖下保护伞，谁说谁也是滥好人一个，谁徘徊在两端犹豫困难煎熬害怕不安。

如果一切都可以‘不难’。
Me,
September 2, 2012.

Dine & Psychology.

Dine alone at [the apartment] KLCC after work.
Always running out of idea what to eat when I'm alone, sometimes I rather starve, although I love foods. Perhaps, undeniable, sometimes we really need a companion. Haha, ain't hinting something, I just simply love to share the joy of "tham jiak" (in hokkien means "glutton").
Unexpectedly, quite enjoy the moment of dining alone that day, even had dessert after the meal, LoLs.

To enjoy a pleasant meal, pick a right seat first :) 

So, which seat you usually choose in a restaurant? Do you know our behavior, habit and even choices sometimes reflecting our personality? Psychologically. Haha, here are a few choices: 

A. Middle of the restaurant.

B. Close to windows.

C. Corner seats.

D. Close to entrance.

The result of analysis? See at the bottom of this post ; )

Cocktail: Tango Mango, recommended by the waiter. Hmm...I didn't really taste mango in the drink...but, quite owkay. Chill~

Seafood spaghetti recommended by waiter as well. The waiter is quite fervent, he even advised me to have the spaghetti while it is still hot...when I was taking this photo. LoLs. Taste good, I prefer fried pasta with olive oil, rather than cream or tomato paste.

Guess I was in good appetite, the dessert: Signature Red Velvet Cake, berries with cheese, nice dessert ; )

Went pass the park after dinner. There was color fountain on show, so I stopped by. It's been a while, oh, I should say, I never really relax myself... 

Owkay, time to reveal~~

Those who choose to sit:

A. Middle of the restaurant, are people with strong confidence, passion and love victory. They might be extraordinary, or...maybe not, in the reality. They are usually assertive, stubborn and perhaps "boast" type. 

B. Close to windows, are cheerful, rational and whose love freedom. They seems peace and tender, however, are tough and strong person. They love planning, doing things step by step, and like to get well prepared.

C. Corner seats, are low profile observer. They usually stand at a side and observing people around, feel uneasy to become attention of the crowd. They are usually sentimental and sensitive.

D. Close to entrance, usually intense, impatient, and energetic. They are living in fast pace, with indomitable and strong will. However, sometimes maybe a bit obstinate.

How do you think? Hmm~ :)

Me,

August 27, 2012.

只是，一个过程

七夕情人节快乐。

刚放下手上的工作，其实这几天在工作后都有过来，只是内心是一片混乱纠结的不知道该怎么写。我总以为一切像是轻舟航行，在水上留下浅浅的轨迹。我总相信时间可以把涟漪抚平，可以装的不以为意。
只是个过程，我总这么告诉自己。那些大大小小的道理，我却想不到任何安慰的话可以让自己的思绪清晰一点，做到的只能是这些。再多一点，再少一点，都让我陷入更混乱的思绪。偶尔，也希望时间‘咻’一声的快速飞逝而去。

偶尔需要寄托一下文字。
Me,
August 23, 2012.

[ ED:] 七年半

有些人一直回想缅怀过去, 有些人一直憧憬未来的目的地.
日子不知不觉的在过, 我一写就写了七年半, 起起落落, 删除重新继续写. 也许是我在人前不善表达, 也或许是言不由衷的理由太多, 才让这部落延续至今.
如今, 一提起 '时间' 二字, 我就欲言又止. 过去的, 即使再深刻, 我也已经找不回适当的文字去绘出那些感觉. 未来的, 却太模糊, 太空泛, 太害怕去想象. 然后, 我才惊觉, 此刻的平凡的房间, 耳机里传来梁静茹的新歌, 空气的味道, 被单的温度, 镜子反映的那个脸孔, 还有寻常到常被我忽略的心跳. 看着秒针绕圈的舞步, 节奏如此平实. 平实到, 我几乎不知道该说什么, 也想不到任何事情.
嗯, 简单来说, 就是 ... 我在电脑荧幕前发呆.
一直重覆听着 [爱久见人心]. 我在想, 其实, 是不是每一样东西都会受到时间的考验, 有自己的有效期限, 抑或都会被琢磨成型? 我都已经忘了ExpiringDate: 这名字的由来. 认真回想, 这七年半的变数, 是当初的我未曾预料的, 我甚至不知道明天或在什么时候, 会突然想通了什么, 就像一刀突然划下成型. 我才突然明白为何领悟总是难免伤痛, 却又那么干脆, 那么必然, 那么精髓.
我原本就猜不透, 就只好坐在这里, 继续努力也好, 继续疯狂也好, 继续装傻也好, 继续长篇大论唠唠叨叨, 继续等...

我, 爱或不爱, 爱久见人心.
Me,
August 10, 2012.

迟早, it's only the matter of time.

凌晨3点.
刚放下手上的工作, 开了一只冷酒, 一包薯片, 几首jj的歌, 还有...一道为了开酒弄到的新伤口.
我不身在所谓的娱乐圈, 但关于感情的事, 一直备受瞩目. 是饭后闲聊的话题, 是不同群的朋友们讨论的话题, 是被猜测的谣言, 是被人唾骂的对象, 是众人忙着帮忙配对的对象, 是开玩笑, 是什么都好...我真的不知道也好, 很多都是知道也装作不知道. 有时候, 单身, 无形中却成为了困扰, 我明明很低调.
其实, 对于感情的事, 学着抱着随缘的心态, 即使在一个人的时候, 有很多很多无奈的对话, 我仍然努力的保持着随缘的心态. 有些事 的发生, 只是迟早. It's only the matter of time, 一句就涵括了一切, 涵括了很多很多我一直没有说出口的话, 连该说的 也都省略掉.

连文字都开始失了焦. 后来, 我却只是平静的等待, 等待一个迟早.
Me,
August 6, 2012.

Another trip to Port Dickson.

Again, a trip to Port Dickson. It's been awhile, being "inactive" state among my uni-friends. It's great to be in touch again.

I never thought of staying here for such a long time, and having so much memories here, a place without home. But, here I am, standing here, with my life, my career, my footsteps and every single things. With nothing with me, from the arrogant, stubborn little girl, begin to turn into a person with humble and veiled thoughts.

Perhaps, nothing is secret.

Good Life ...

Good night and sweet dream.

A weird prologue for my update. Things getting weird recently, or I should say, I have been thinking too much recent days. Pushing myself and making my life in pain, and I did it again today.

It is harder than expected to be on the fence, swinging between both heartbreaking decisions. Truly  madly deeply, a heartbreaking path. Some answers are like roses, they have thorns. Some are like stars, they glow, however in a dark, cold, liveless desert. Some are like mirrors, reflecting almost near to absolute truth, somehow so distorted by eyes of a person. There is no answers for me at this moment, perhaps, the harder parts are always intentions and emotions. Many said to live a life and move on. Yea, as long as life is good, nothing much I to complaint about.
This gotta be a good life, this could really be a good life, a good, good life.

Try to be truthful, to myself.
This is only the matter of time, people come people go. Hopelessly, I needed a hug from you, a sincere hug with tons of words which never tell.



Good night and sweet dream, to you whom I care a lot, with whole-hearted, with care, and with love.
Me,
August 5, 2012.

过去; 现在.

在电台听到 Fiona 薛凯琪的 [Better Me]. 一听就很喜欢.
喜欢, 因为很适合现在的我吧. 一个重新整理行囊再出发的我, 一个人的我, 准备面对很多未知的未来的我. Choose to hug my life with tolerance, open my eyes to see a little more, step out a little further to move on, smile a little more because I think I might be pretty. Life is always a mystery, I always believe the goods and bads, they happened for a reason.
Just learn to be a better me.

过去, 年少无知也不知天高地厚, 以为未来是一件那么容易的事, 成长是那么不费力的事. 一路闯荡下来, 不知不觉就快要25岁了, 就要开始为未来的5年做准备了. 学习了负责任, 学习了面对害怕, 学习懂事, 学习世俗, 学习选择, 学习作主, 学习独立, 虽然没有一样做得好, 但还是做到了简单和肤浅. 我已经不是高喊要去闯荡江湖的海盗小王子, 现在, 我只是一个谦卑的旅客; 不再满口的冒险, 而是平淡简单的行囊. 以往要出去是为了不平凡; 现在出门是为了学会平凡, 学会看懂世俗. 过去是因为装满了勇气才出去闯荡; 现在继续前进是一步一步学会装载更多的勇气. 

或许, 这世上再也没有第二个人懂得这些 [过去; 现在] 对于我来说是多么具有意义的事. 

Me,

July 29, 2012.

Makan feast at Melacca - Part Two, Coffee.

Love how coffee tastes, love how coffee colors my life.

Recommended by my colleague: Calanthe Art Cafe.
11, Jalan Hang Katsuri, Melaka.
This cafe is located at one of the Jonker Street lorongs. If you have not visited all the thirteen states of Malaysia, welcome to this cafe, it has coffee of the 13 states of Malaysia.

It does not have Caramel Macchiato as well...so I ordered those which my colleagues described as "weird" coffee. We spent three evenings at this cafe after working, it is quite a nice cafe for relaxing, the desserts are good as well. I recommended the puddings and caramel slice, they are delicious and perfect desserts with coffee.
I love to look at the small aquarium and the cupboard with all the coffee-related things on it. Inspired me to start my own coffee collections, haha.

Learn to enjoy and appreciate something, is a gain, is a gift.

Makan Feast at Melacca - Part One.

A first working trip with three eating monsters to Melacca. Well, my trip ended up very predictable - makan and party to the max!
Melacca is not only well known for the historical scenery, of course, nice foods as well! Guess four of us are the lucky four to have this chance to enjoy our whole weekend with a formal excuse "business trip", lols!

Introduced by my colleague: Makko Nyonya Restaurant
No.123, Off Jalan Parameswara, Taman Melaka Raya, 75000 Melaka, Melaka.
I am not familiar with the location of Melacca, I think it is some where quite near to Dataran Pahlawan. There are a number of nyonya restaurants in Melacca. The previous nyonya restaurant I went with my cousin in January was Nancy Kitchen at Jonker Street. Both restaurant are good, I can't tell which is better. Gonna go Melacca again to explore more.

Satay Celup is a Must-try in Melacca. Introduced by my colleague as well: Restaurant Ban Lee Siang.

45E, Jalan Ong Kim Wee, Melaka.

One of the two famous satay celup, another one is Capitol. I tried both, but....unfortunately, I am not a big fans of satay celup, I only fancy satay....haha, however, it is a nice place for supper :)

Portuguese grill! How can we missed it? We had our dinner at Portuguese Settlement for two nights! Seafood and Seafood and Seafood...and the mango juice as well, taste sweet and sour, quite nice. I did not take much photos as my Samsung Note is always out of battery after the long day...lols...

Had my lunch on a late afternoon with my manager. This was recommended by him: Pork Noodle at Hing Loong Taiwanese Noodle.

No.11-J, Jalan Banchang, 75300 Melaka.

The location of this noodle shop is quite near to Ban Hong Xiang Tea House, which is a dim sum restaurant, yummmmmmm!

The noodle taste good, I feel like having more pork chop, the portion bit ... small.... lols.

Our breakfast on the last day of our working trip - Ban Hong Xiang Tea House, at Jalan Banchang. Niceee~~~the whole table was full of platessss...... Cheers! My colleagues memang eating monsters...however, we fully enjoy the trip ;-)

现在是阳光刺眼的凌晨。

今天重复听的歌是戴佩妮和黄威尔的 [我们之间] .

常听人说, people come people go.
有时候, 我都不敢去回想那么多的过去, 也带着那种忐忑的心情等待下一刻.
很想说, 我真的有在努力, 无论是坚持或是离开, 我都是那么的努力去让整个句点完整. 成长, 最让我讨厌的部分就是领悟, 最让我庆幸的部分也是领悟. 有时候, 那些越清楚的画面, 越是尖锐刺眼.
"Till we meet again."
此刻, 我也真的明白, 在不明白, 和在明白的情况下, 说了这句话, 真的很不同.
我放下蒙着眼睛的双手, 阳光突然变得那么刺眼, 我本能的锁紧眉头紧闭着双眼, 慢慢的, 还是睁开眼睛看清楚眼前的风景, 去领悟属于我的风景. 也许, 这是一件好事, 我终于可以放开一些人一些事, 往自己的方向前进.

此刻, 多想梦见阳光美丽的午后.
Me,
July 29, 2012.

越来 越 不懂.

那一瞬间, 莫名的觉得好难过, 有种眼泪突然要掉下的感觉. 突然的让我措手不及, 然而却在下一个瞬间醒来, 然后用力把就快涌出的眼泪拉回来. 越来越不懂, 这种莫名又那么沉重的难过是为了什么.
我那么的用力, 明白释怀放开快乐假装, 我连沉默也如此用力.
却越来越不懂, 对与错, 是与非. 也许我最没办法做到的, 就是用力的离开, 用力的去恨.

今天工作时又去找苦涩的咖啡, 结果一个早上就喝了两杯. 之前朋友一直说要去Dome Cafe, 可是大家都太忙, 抱歉了, 我自己先去享受了. 今天难得可以一边工作一边喝咖啡呢. 可惜, 还是没有我最爱的caramel macchiato, 所以只点了long macchiato. 哈哈, 我是钟情于 macchiato 吧, 喜欢它给我一种刚刚好的味道, 既不太浓, 也不太淡.
就像我的个性, 不浓不淡, 好像没太要求, 好像一点也不像挑剔的处女座, 而其实一直要求拿捏的刚刚好也是一个很有难度的挑战.

对了, 今天是我的buddy S-O-O 生日, 在这里祝福他开开心心, 顺顺利利~Ong Arrr!

其实偶尔我也想学会适时松懈一下.
有些事情, 不得不承认, 就算我再怎么努力再怎么用力再有决心也只是徒劳. 那虽与时间无关, 却也只能把抉择交由时间. 可我却在明白这点的同时, 已经伤痕累累. 
Me,
July 25, 2012.

过日子

又无故缺席一段日子. 去了不少地方, 拍了不少照片, 吃了不少东西, 也过了很多...鸟日子. 有时候真想公开大声喊: 我累了!
那天有个朋友突然对我说, 他很羡慕我的生活. 于是我想了好久, 我生活过得怎么样了? 我从来没有认真的想过, 我总是像个海贝, 把很多事情都封闭了. 即使累了, 还是若无其事笑容满面的样子, 我想我就累在于不知道自己的底线在哪里吧. 有时候不知道自己是傻还是真的很能撑. 反正, 日子还是得好好的过. 所以, 我依然去很多地方, 拍很多照片, 吃很多东西, 过很多个...管它是个什么日子, 忙得没完没了, 累了就睡, 睡饱再说.
莫名的一直重复听着张学友的[咖啡], 直到今天喝了一杯很苦的咖啡, 好像终于尝到了歌词的某些部分. 有一种苦到心里的感觉, 像一个巴掌往自己打, 突然醒了, 已经不可能再装下去了. 这些沉静的日子里, 其实也想了很多, 突然就喜欢上这种咖啡的苦涩, 好让自己保持清醒.



有时候也觉得那些做梦的日子就像个笑话.
Me,
July 23, 2012.

真心话

生活，依然每天忙碌。
忙得有时候也不知道自己在忙什么。也许就忙着在流逝似水的时间里老去，忙着向庸碌的人群里挤去，忙着去适应孤独学会一个人长大，忙着塞满空闲的时间至到没有空位来想你，忙着让自己疲惫得每晚得以沉沉睡去至到天亮，忙着出席每一个邀约，却也同时有意无意的拒绝每一个好意。
其实说句真心话，并不是真的不知道自己在忙什么，只是。。。不知从何说起。

Let's Plan B !

Well, funny 'cause I don't even have a Plan A.
Haha... Owkay, Plan B is a restaurant in the newly open Paradigm Mall. I like the name, I like the environment, the foods are owkay, waiters are polite and helpful.. hmm.. price, maybe a litttttttttle bit high? Over all, I like it.

 

 

Was rushing to the mall that day, so I had my brunch there. Glance through the menu, mostly western, and it just my preference - western food... oh yea~
Ordered my favourite coffee, Macchiato and randomly picked a brunch dish, Eggs Royale.
If you are not a coffee person, forget about trying Macchiato, 'cause it comes in shot, something like espresso. I kinda like the taste of the shot, it is concentrated and bitter, however, has a nice taste after the bitter, Syiok. Hmmm, if you doesn't like raw food, forget about Eggs Royale as well - two delicately poached eggs with smoked salmon, served on toasted English muffin. Truly, I like the way they make the poached eggs, wonder how they make it, kinda special.
Lonely brunch with just me... hmm.. but I kinda enjoy it.