Poisoned.

Missing is a poison, and I am kinda addicted to it.

Me,

December 28, 2011.

信仰

我以为我已经完全迷失了自己 , 快被自我怀疑击败 . 我有点累了 , 一静下来 , 没休息够 , 我就要启程了 . 这就是 , 我和我的人生 .

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost [The road not taken] .

我一直很喜欢这首诗 . 因为 , 它对于我 , 具有特别的意义 . 我作了影响我人生的选择 , 天知道 , 我需要的勇气有多大 , 我需要多坚强才可以维护我的信仰和梦想 . 而对于这件事 , 我对于人前一直一副很泰然的样子 , 但在人后 , 我不是没有脆弱过 , 但还是坚持选择一路走下去 , 选择了挑战自己 , 这就是 , 我和我的人生 .

没有人懂我的执着 , 我眼里所看到的向往 , 我沉默不因为我闹情绪 .

而我不懂我会不会因为这一份执着失去更多 , 我是否够坚强走到我眼里的理想 , 而现实是 , 不是每一个人都可以认同属于另类的我 . 我不是一个容易被了解的人 , 也许在有些人的眼里我是一道阳光 , 而也有人把我批评的一文不值 . 但他们的认同或不认同都一一的让我更懂我自己 , 我的方向 , 这就是 , 我和我的人生 .

别说我是偏执狂 , 我只是在追求我的理想 , 活得更有向往 , 拥有我自己的信仰和坚持 , 享受为自己的理想昂首飞翔 . 也许是为了自我感觉良好吧 , 哈哈 . 这个圣诞节里 , 是很好的出发点 , 重点不是因为我怎么过这个圣诞 , 而是某些人 , 某些事让我体会我不明白 , 和被遗忘的事情 .

我不管 我倔強.

Me,

December 27, 2011 .

A.M. P.M.

A.M. P.M.

Me,

December 16, 2011 .

美丽的插曲.

萧亚轩之前有一首歌 , [美丽的插曲] .

见到你 , 我总算放下心了 . 但是 , 这颗心 , 因为明白了自己从来不曾是一首插曲 , 似乎又失魂落魄了. 颓废 , 也美丽 .

那些因为爱而快乐 , 伤心 , 兴奋 , 落寞的, 都有一种美丽 . 也许你永远绘不出我的美丽 , 因为你从未爱过我 ; 而如果你看见了我的画 , 你会感叹你的一切都那么美丽 , 因为我是那么的爱你 .

Me,

December 15, 2011.

有可能 , 不爱你吗?

今天看到一个朋友 , 在fb放: If you love someone , be brave to tell them , otherwise , be brave enough to watch them be loved by someone else.

最近在看一部台湾连续剧 , 一向不喜欢台湾连续剧的 , 不过 , 这一套还蛮好看的 .

一开始 , 是被它的名字吸引了 [我可能不会爱你] . 看着看着 , 突然我认同了 .

这样或许也好吧 , 我一直 , 没有勇气过问 , 却又同时也没经你的同意 , 用我的方式解读着你 . 

人 , 总是这样 . 在心里憧憬美好 , 但在门前踱步 , 最难的那一关 , 就是鼓起勇气伸手转那个门把 , 打开那扇通往答案的门 . 我们 , 这一生 , 都用了很多时间 , 在踱步 , 在徘徊思考假想憧憬害怕考虑 . 而明明解开的霎那 , 就是相对短暂的时间 . 我们 , 都是这样 , 是吧 ?

它叫新世界, the world. 取名自tarot的其中一个牌 . 是前天买下的新笔记本.

憧憬 : 如果 , 有一天 , 门打开了 , 我们面对面看着 . 可不可以 , 紧紧握着我的手 , 因为我很想念 , 被你牵着的感觉 .

踱步 : 我想 , 真的有点困难 . 要努力不爱一个人 和 努力去爱一个人 , 同时都会有困难 . 每个人都因为向往幸福 , 都努力的弯腰寻找幸福的玻璃球的碎片 , 其实 , 每个人 都会属于自己的幸福的 .

Me,

December 14, 2011 .

Expiring Date of Desire ...

他说, 人是犯贱的, 明知道会痛, 却还要选择走这条路.

我想, 是啊, 而且一而再的重蹈覆辙, 也许, 我们也乐在其中吧.

一切只是一种过程, 重要的就是走过这样的过程, 而无论结局是什么, 还是要学会释然. 人生的结局, 在我懂事以来已经预知了, 只是, 我不知道人生的过程, 会有怎样的际遇. 不久之后, 才明白了, 人生就是一种过程.

我不确定预知这样东西, 但是偶尔猜测和推论也是可以描绘出我们对未来的想象中的答案. 我明明也猜测到结局, 但还是控制不了心里在期待着想象中的美好. 矛盾的一边在期待幻想中, 一边在唤醒自己要清楚知道后果会有什么. 欲望像是童话中的恶魔, 使用着魔法绘出各种糖果屋的幻想, 正因为知道我们想听到, 想看到的, 所以很准确的制造让人向往的答案, 左右人的思想. 每个人的心里, 都有这个恶魔. 面对一个自己想听到的答案, 和一个自己不想听到的答案中挣扎, 是蛮左右为难的事. 像我对一些理论, 从来都分不清对错. Life is just a dream, 那究竟生活是一场梦, 还是醒着才是真正的生活呢?

尽管如此, 我今天还是很快乐的, 而这份大大的快乐, 来自小小的知足. 也让我知道了, 有时候, 人生最大的快乐, 就是知足. 我不懂有一天, 我会不会变的被欲望蒙蔽, 会不会变的自私, 变的贪心不再满足. 但是在这一刻, 我仍然感激, 珍惜现在拥有的一切, 甚至感动得好想哭, 我想这一份感动没有人可以明白, 甚至有人会认为我疯了, 可能我也会认为自己真的傻了.

我希望, 这份感动, 没有截止日期.

Me,

November 28, 2011.

this might be nothing but a dream...

"Yet mark'd I where the bolt of Cupid fell:

It fell upon a little western flower, -

Before milk-white, now purple with love's wound, -

And maidens call it love-in-idleness.

Fetch me that flower, the herb I showed thee once:

The juice of it on sleeping eyelids laid

Will make or man or woman madly dote

Upon the next live creature that it sees."

-Shakespeare's [A midsummer night's dream].

This is my favourite piece from William Shakespeare. In a woodland, and in the realm of Fairyland, under the light of moon, where a ridiculous love comedy was set. Oberon order Puck to help him apply a magical juice from a flower called "love-in-idleness", which applied to a person's eyelids while sleeping makes the victim fall in love with the first living thing upon awakening. And the mischief begins.

At the end, Puck says this might be nothing but a dream.

I wonder the existence of love-in-idleness. Is there a reason that make people madly dote?

If it is so, who is the one in that person you are in love with? Who is the one you sees in that person, or you understand in that person which attractive enough for you and it's different with others?

Good Night. Sweet dream, to the whole world.

Me,

November 24, 2011.

Lovely Quote made the day :)

Saw a quote today, 'Do you believe love at the first sight or should I walk by again?'

Hahaha, then I laughed, silly. It's lovely.

It's ridiculous, to find people are ridiculous.

Yes, I wish you will walk by again. Haha.

Me,

November 23, 2011.

The ED: version, One Day, and Me.

Twenties years, two people.

Just finished this movie this afternoon, [One Day], from the novel by David Nicholls. July 15, 1988 - Dexter and Emma begin a lifetime friendship after their college graduation and a night spending together. For the next two decades, twenties July 15ths, together and apart, their lives take different directions, meet different people. Somewhere along their journey, they realize that what they are searching and hoping for has been there for them all along.

Starring by Anne Hathaway and Jim Sturgess.

Have you found what you have been searching for in all this while?

Hold tight.

Love made loneliness lasting like forever, by Soda Green. Yea, either love or loved, had magnify the loneliness, and lonely is because of love or loved.

Neither do I, I don't remember both. And therefore, I am not lonely, look closely in my eyes, and you'll found me, I am not lonely, I am just empty. I only exist, when you hold me tight, when you sees me through the eyes and I know you sees something in me, and, when you think of me in one of those days, I smiled. This is me, even I start talking, it still, never seems to completely empty what's in my head and heart. But, I am just a swallow and simple person.

How could it be?

Me,

November 21, 2011.

完美

苏打绿 - 幸福额度

作词：吴青峰 作曲：吴青峰

Listen 你现在的感情 从何选择

看天气的脸色 还是体温

幸福不会是牛顿 一颗苹果成学问

所以 得不到那个人 是否该恨

Listen 你现在的人生 要什么呢

出门要豪华车 或随缘分

幸福或许是诸葛 三顾也不见得成

所以 达不到你要的 是否该扔

又或者 永远是不可能 满分

You say why 爱让寂寞像永恒

And why 爱像过客不闻不问

Oh why 爱 似乎总不贴近灵魂

Listen 回忆里的气氛 是热是冷

孤芳得像天鹅 还是风筝

或许就像哥伦布 错误点起万盏灯

所以 是不是还想要 再试再撑

又或者 因为曾有的疼 沉沦

You say why 爱让寂寞像永恒

And why 爱像过客不闻不问

Oh why 爱 似乎总不贴近灵魂

怎么能 怎么能

相聚分离 光影凉了又温

想起忘记 眼泪浅了又深

凡美丽总像是流水逝去不会转过身

雨水却在不知名的清晨纷纷

You say why Oh 寂寞像永恒

And why 像过客不闻不问

Oh why 爱 不贴近灵魂

I say why 爱让你充满疑问

And why 爱总让你一点不剩

Oh why why 爱只需建立在一个吻

怎么能 怎么能 怎么能

怎么能

我觉得幸福就是 不因为去追求过多的幸福 而感到不幸福

青峰的声线近乎完美 .

把这首歌刻画的 , 近乎完美 . 听了, 我轻轻的扬起嘴角 , 笑了 . 兜兜转转在感情 , 人生 , 事业 , 将来 .

谁真的懂了?

我不懂 , 只是肤浅的追求 . 所以我说 , 我一直想做一个肤浅的人 .

我反思 , 如果凡事都有轨迹 , 都有来去 , 那我的思念何去何从了 ?
why , 爱 , 从何选择 ?

那么你呢 ? 等的人 , 到了吗 ?

why, 得不到 , 该不该 去恨 ?

他们说 , 随缘分 .

很多人 都因 曾有的疼 沉沦 .

没有人 明白 爱情 不会有满分 .

盲目的忙碌 , 盲目的兜转 , 盲目的追求 , 盲目的思念 , 盲目的等待 , 盲目的爱恨 , 盲目的沉沦 ,

盲目的筑梦.

是的 , 很盲目 . 但是 , 可不可以 就这样继续 天真的 盲目的 下去 ?

Me,

20 November, 2011.

You

Started with silent.

My heart beats, in silent.

Missing overruns, in silent.

And therefore, I pray, in silent.

I wish, you are the sun.

With serene weather.

Only Heaven knows, I had completely lost it.

And only the Stars knows, how I cried silently in the late night.

Day after day.

到最后回首才发现

这世界 滴滴点点 全部 都是你

Me,

November 14, 2011.

With Me :)

Without planning , unintentionally ,

Falling into contradiction .

Facing the blank with silent , yet , loquacity .

With a little bit of joyful and feeling a little bit of lose .

Spent a weekend at Subang and BP. Where I used to be.

Actually I really love the feeling to work together with my friends, with so much fun, understanding each other well...anyway, I am glad that we can still hanging out together , like we always did :)

With Me :).

Me,

November 8, 2011.

一日假日, 一日宅女.

一觉睡到自然醒过来.

睁开眼睛, 看见透过窗帘的阳光.

突然发现自己活在这个时代, 然后再想想自己的人生.

我总是一个不容易停下休息的火车吧.

人生就是不停的奋斗. 但总要努力先找出自己的路轨.

这个世界也是一样吧, 大家都在时针分针秒针里面赛跑. 追求什么. 在意什么.

昨天打算工作半日后去Mid Valley逛逛, 刚好我上司, 说要去 Mid Valley 一起吃午餐. 我当然说好~ 哈哈. 原本要去Sushi Zenmai 的, 不过排长队, 我们就去[美味园] (Homemade Fish Head Noodle). 我没点招牌鱼头米, 反而点了fried chicken tou fu rice with chef special sauce. 还蛮好吃的, 不过这一盘就RM 10.20, 感觉贵了点. 饮料自然是我的至爱: 腐竹薏米白果, RM 3.50.

哈哈, 难得今天不用做工, 睡到饱, 喝杯咖啡, 再打打部落, 真好.




看到有人叫facebook分享结婚的短片, 心里觉得好羡慕, 有点期待自己的婚礼. 现在没有想要拍拖的念头, 应该是因为还没有遇见命运的惊叹吧. 我相信在这个胡闹的世界上, 有个人等着遇见我. 然后不管这是什么年代, 置身事外的去爱一场.

命运的惊叹, 就是... ! 这样咯.哈哈.

Me,

November 6, 2011.

Indonesia Food: Brisik, Jaya One

This post is totally 'fresh'. Haha, which means I just back from gals gathering at Jaya One, and straight away post it.

It's been 2 years since last met with my uni course mates, and finally have a chance to gather up again, we chat like non stop...haha, sincerely, that's great :). Actually, I do feel guilty, after graduation I never actually contact them or catch up with them, my bad... but luckily friendship never fade away easily :) cheers!

Oh yea..we had our gathering at Brisik, Jaya One. It's an Indonesia Food Restaurant, but .... seems not really Indonesia, just more like ... a mixing of Nan Yang style. However, the foods are nice. I ordered Cream Sauce Pasta, which is recommended by the waitress, and it is really nice!

My friend's tum yum soup:

My phone run out of battery, so I din manage to take more photos... so ..that's all.

Check out this place: M2-1, Palm Square, Jaya One, No. 72-A, Jalan Universiti, 46200 Petaling Jaya.

We talk lots of things regarding relationship, suddenly, I feel like it's hard to meet someone that can together make up a perfect couple. Maybe I should just give up my silly thought ... and whatever, just empty the place, be resolute, absolutely, completely.... at least for now, till I found someone I want to hug him tight and kiss him and love him like forever.

I guess that's the connection I always wanted.

Be me.

Me,

November 4, 2011.

Melacca Nyonya Food Crave: The Tranquerah.

Last two weeks ago my manager brought me and my colleague to her friend's restaurant, The Tranquerah. It is a Melacca Nyonya food restaurant, located at Damansara, Red Carpet Avenue. Truly, the restaurant is awesome! Not to mention the food served there, huiyo ~ yummy! I had two bowls of rice that night!

Besides, the decoration there is quite unique, yet, comfortable. It is nice place for dining :)

Thanks to my manager for the meal ~~ yeah~~~ *happy*!

Strongly recommended! Five star *****

Ta-Da~~here goes the photos! but I was too concentrated in eating, therefore I forget the name of cuisine... :P

Check out this place @ 62A-G, Red Carpet Avenue, Encorp Strand, Jalan PJU 5/22, Kota Damansara, 47810 Petaling Jaya. Facebook: The Tranquerah.

An empty seat.

Me,

November 2, 2011.

Tong Shui Crave: KTZ Food, 记得食.

Kepong Kei Tak Sei is quite a famous and popular place for nice Tong Shui and delicious Dim Sum. I went there with LT, Potato and Janet few weeks ago...Yum Yummy~!

We reached there around 10 something, the Tong Shui almost sold out, so we ordered Fruit Ice - Mango Ice, Honey Drew Ice and Kiwi Ice in the second pic .

I ordered Honey Drew Ice but I think Mango Ice is the best, and later I was kinda regret for ordering icy cold dessert coz it winded and rained heavily when we were enjoying our food, LOL, and I was actually shivering while eating my Honey Drew Ice...T.T...poor thing.

I kinda hand it to LT and Potato, they ordered a second bowl of ice dessert- Red Bean Ice (third pic) , after finish their Mango Ice...Salute! LOL...in such a cold cold weather...I surrender.

We also ordered few dishes of Dim Sum, personally, strong recommended - Sticky Rice and Siew Kow. Then we ordered SeaweedRroll, Crab Roll, Loh Mai Kai, Crab Meat Toufu and Fish Fillet. Others are quite nice too, but I like sticky rice and siew kow the most, yummmm! :)

I think this place has nice food, however, the price ... kinda expensive, our bill for all the above: RM 52.80. Hmmm, but it's worth to try lah.... :)

Find out this place: KTZ Food. 66, Jalan 7, Kepong Baru, 52100 KL.

Up a tree.

Me,

November 1, 2011.

Japan crave - Sushi Zanmai, One Utama.

I'm not a very big fans of Japanese food, but everyone knows, I'm a tham jiak person~I never missed nice food~~~hahaha.

There is always a long queue at Sushi Zanmai, One Utama. So, we and my friends went join the 'fun' there, again, that was weeks ago...We actually arrived earlier, so, we did not spend much time in the queue.

Ta-Da~~~Sushi, one of the classic Japanese cuisine, a handful of cooked rice, served with other ingredient (raw fish, fish eggs, fried toufu (inari), egg, grilled eel and etc etc..) and wrapped with dried seaweed.

My favourite Japanese cuisine - unagi, grilled Japanese eel (usually freshwater eel). But, honestly, I did not enjoy my unagi rice that day, because lots of tiny fish bones inside -_-.....spoil mood lur...sienz.

Lastly, my friends ordered this green tea ice cream, but I didn't get to try this, I think this can be bought in Japanese market too, maybe I should try this out other day.

Based on this visit, I don't think I will rate this place as 'preference' ... as..I don't like the unagi here... :( but that's personally.

My heart is empty, yet, occupied.

Me,

October 31, 2011. Happy Halloween.

Ipoh - Trip ended with Sunshine.

Continue with my Ipoh trip...which I should be posting it a month ago...aiks! Hmmm...now can see how busy I am~haha...

Owkay, the time I went Ipoh was the birthday of Jiu Wang Ye. So I went to join the festivity at Tou Mu Gong.

Shun Shun Li Li, Huat arrrrrR! hahaha~

Finding fresh made Nyonya Kuih? My friend recommended this shop to me, quite a unique shop, selling a variety kind of Nyonya Kuih, yum~~taste good too^^ Regretfully I went there with a full stomach...I always have a thing to Nyonya food, so I definitely will visit it next time to try out more Nyonya Kuih~ (and note: Wei Wei, there got sell SnowBall! quite nice :D)

Visited a nice place lastly, Gua Kek Look Tong (极乐洞). It's a beautiful place with a nice garden behind the cave, and there are a lot of statuette, interesting.

Trip Ended with Sunshine :)