真心话

生活，依然每天忙碌。
忙得有时候也不知道自己在忙什么。也许就忙着在流逝似水的时间里老去，忙着向庸碌的人群里挤去，忙着去适应孤独学会一个人长大，忙着塞满空闲的时间至到没有空位来想你，忙着让自己疲惫得每晚得以沉沉睡去至到天亮，忙着出席每一个邀约，却也同时有意无意的拒绝每一个好意。
其实说句真心话，并不是真的不知道自己在忙什么，只是。。。不知从何说起。

Let's Plan B !

Well, funny 'cause I don't even have a Plan A.
Haha... Owkay, Plan B is a restaurant in the newly open Paradigm Mall. I like the name, I like the environment, the foods are owkay, waiters are polite and helpful.. hmm.. price, maybe a litttttttttle bit high? Over all, I like it.

 

 

Was rushing to the mall that day, so I had my brunch there. Glance through the menu, mostly western, and it just my preference - western food... oh yea~
Ordered my favourite coffee, Macchiato and randomly picked a brunch dish, Eggs Royale.
If you are not a coffee person, forget about trying Macchiato, 'cause it comes in shot, something like espresso. I kinda like the taste of the shot, it is concentrated and bitter, however, has a nice taste after the bitter, Syiok. Hmmm, if you doesn't like raw food, forget about Eggs Royale as well - two delicately poached eggs with smoked salmon, served on toasted English muffin. Truly, I like the way they make the poached eggs, wonder how they make it, kinda special.
Lonely brunch with just me... hmm.. but I kinda enjoy it.

The collide, after.

Leo: "How do you look at the woman you love, and tell yourself that it's time to walk away?" - The Vow.

I hadn't really told you everything, not in all these while. I say nothing, or do nothing,  and I just watching you walk away, day by day. I am thinking so hard, and even struggle in the night, wonder if I should just let it go? It's hard. I know, there is nothing I can change now.
But, I hadn't say anything.
The moment of impact, causing the ripples effect that beyond what we can predict. Bringing particles crashing together, and spinning off into the crowds. I wasn't knew  it at the first place, wasn't knew I will spending so much time in thinking of you since then, wasn't knew I will cry when I think about the gap in between. I never meant to sway away.
Here I am drowning in the ripples, after the collide. I can never, no matter how hard I tried, to control all the things. I will always remember your smile and the way you whisper to me with your eyes, like how I remember the sparks when we met. I never ask for anything, but i wish you will remember me like the way I remember you.

I wish all of us will find someone who willing to read the vow and holding hands for life.
Eventually, happily ever after.
Me,
June 17, 2012.

For you...

Thought I would never ever mention "you", like you no longer exist here, right in my chest. Thought it would be better that way. But hey... I am living in hesitant, like I could never complete a sentence anymore. It's stupid, and I don't really care who is gonna standing right in front of me and teasing me. I will take it. 'Cause this is me, and it's all I want to be.
People are too focus on the outcome, undeniable, it freaks me out once. Yet, it can not fool my heart. It is either good or not good, and why I should hesitate, if it is you.

If one day when we woke up, and we started to realize...we all spent on so much time in doubting.




I don't know if I am right or wrong. But I wish to do something, for you.
Me,
June 11, 2012.

Stronger

今天，对我而言，是有意义的日子。做了那么多，有时候也难免会怀疑自己，可不可以？ 对了吗？可是，有些决定还是去做了，有些人还是义无反顾的爱了。
今天，我要欢迎我第一辆车来到了我的人生。让我觉得，自己更想要变得一个有担当的人。
一个人驾着它到处走，回到房间静下来，那心里复杂的感触真的好多。像纠缠成一团的线，要怎么下手去解开，我真的。。不知道。也许，我真的想太多了吧。

晚安
Me,
June 8, 2012.

too much, yet, too less.

Too much. Been thinking a lot of things recently.
However, too less. Had rarely spoken.

想了很多，说的很少。我想，也许需要的是时间吧。突然之间，我们都不再提起一些事情，但不代表我们忘记。而是，我们将这些事情，紧紧的放在心上了。至此，即使不提起，有些事情却牢牢的跟随着自己，如影随形。我们都是这样的方式来想念着，不是吗？
虽然都知道了这并不是理想的办法，也知道期待的事情永远只是幻觉，但我们依然静静的等待。

这是一场都在等待的等待，都假装不知道的知道。想起来，也是有点好笑。好吧，我们让时间慢慢开口。
Me,
June 3, 2012.